Blindsided

I have to admit today, I'm recovering from a huge case of being blindsided. You know that thing that no one told you about, but decided to throw out there after a long period of time and make you feel horrible about? Yup, that's the feeling.

I've felt a bit like an outsider for awhile, and this just made me feel more like one. I can't quite understand how if something was wrong a year ago, why did no one tell me? Why wasn't it addressed earlier so I could actually do something to fix it? Why do I feel like the person who told me just threw it in my face?

This week I'm just feeling disappointed in people who claim that I'm immature, but then do things to show their own immaturity. The people that tell me a year after the fact something was wrong, the people that pull something that is reminiscent of high school, the people that can't seem to tell me to my face that something is wrong. It's really disappointing when you've looked up to these people for a long time.