I have days every once in awhile when I feel like nobody would particularly miss me if I were gone - except my dog, because who would feed her?
I've been playing catch up at work from a crazy busy week, and my mind has been wandering to other things. Eric is in England until next Thursday, so we won't talk on the phone until he gets back. This, combined with him having been in Mexico for a week recently, just feels weird. I'm used to talking to him every day.
Then there are the friends that you want to help, but you're not sure how to. But that doesn't matter particularly, since they have plenty of others to help them, so, not missed there either.
I don't know if it's a product of really strange happenings in my life lately, or just strange coincidence. It's strange how certain events can really make you feel lonely and not needed...
5 comments:
You've got 64 followers on your blog and I know that I would miss you. Perhaps YOU need to do some traveling!
I wouldn't say that you're not needed, nor wanted. I would say you're a very important part of many things.
And you've got a whole hell of lot more followers than I do (although I'll have to tell you more about that sometime later).
At any rate, I just want to say thanks ... because of you (and the help that you unknowingly gave to others today) ... I'm still here to blog and comment back on other blogs.
Thanks, kiddo!
You make the logical error (which is easy to do when writing about emotions) of equating an inability to be of service at a particular moment with general uselessness. Not being able to connect or help others in a way that you'd like to does not mean that your absence would go unnoticed or that you wouldn't be missed. This is a bittersweet realization that all parents struggle with (well, all parents who take an active and caring role in raising their children anyway). Take advantage of moments like this to do things for yourself that you might not otherwise have time or energy to do in a life of service. You would probably do well to read Kathleen Norris' newest book, "Acedia and Me." In any event, remember that at the end of the day, you still have a significant other in your life, no matter how far away he might be. Many, many of us lack this ...
And you so tried to do?
I only regret that I have but one life to lose for my country.
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