Obviously if you've been reading my blog, you've noticed I've talked a lot about friends lately. On my way home from work tonight, and after having plans I was looking forward to foiled, I realized that I've been feeling like my "friends" don't necessarily want me around. Part of that is that I can't help them the way that I want to help them.
Part of this is jealousy - jealousy that some friends have other people that are helping them more, when I really want to be the one to help. I know it sounds absolutely ridiculous, but it's true. When someone has helped you so much, how can you not want to do as much as you can for them?
Anyway, so now that I'm finally home from work, I'm trying not to be too sad about my plans that unfortunately fell through, but it's not working so great so far...
2 comments:
Sorry about tonight ... promise that Friday will be better!
Keep in mind trying to help them in they way they need it, not necessarily the way you want to help. Sometimes, just the security of knowing someone will be there for you is a really calming influence. Just because you're not called to duty doesn't mean you're not recognized as one who would be supportive. Chin up, Grasshopper!
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