Eating My Feelings or Cupcakes are a Sometimes Food

I guess I should thank my friend Lauren for the phrase "eating my feelings". I had heard it before, but she reminded me of it recently, and I've used it quite a bit since then.

I made it my goal to "maintain" through the holidays. I don't think it's going so well.

I write this blog is because I'm struggling.

I'm struggling with my brain telling me "one cupcake will be ok". Or "go ahead and have another cookie". One turns into two...and before I know it, I've eaten 3 cookies.

I'm struggling with going out to lunch when normally, I could bring in a frozen meal, except that the freezer at work isn't really working.

I'm struggling with not being able to train this week because my back has decided to be in pain. So, no running since Monday.

I'm struggling with my feelings in general this holiday season. And this week has been one that has just been frustrating and has left me disappointed in a number of things.

All of these things lead to one thing - relying on food to feel better for a short time. OR - eating my feelings.

I end up getting into the situation I was in tonight - so exhausted and burned out that I didn't want to get out of my chair, let alone cook anything. So, I got out of my chair and went to Burger King. Crappy food and a second Whopper for 55 cents. Not so good for maintaining.

I can only hope that this struggle doesn't last much longer. I hope to use this weekend to recharge and nurse my back. I hope that next week is better. I hope that I can get things back in order again soon.