It's November. Each year, I typically have this dual feeling about going into the holiday season, and this year is similar, though the feeling is a bit different.
You see, growing up, family gatherings were fairly small. Including me, mom, dad and sometimes brother. The immediate family was never very close to any of the extended family, so Thanksgiving and Christmas were basically days I'd see family I pretty much saw all the time.
Family gatherings are still fairly small, and I tend to use the holiday season as time to recharge and spend some much needed time relaxing and doing fun things. I enjoy this time because I can catch up on reading, not worry about class, spend time with the dog, sleep, binge watch TV shows, etc.
But on the other hand, the holidays make me feel lonely. I like to call it the Bridget Jones syndrome. It's not that people go out of their way or try to make you feel bad because you're single, it just is. Luckily, I think my parents stopped asking about marriage/kids a long time ago. And while I enjoy being single, I have also found that I miss having someone other than my dog to come home to. Of course when I think of this, I do know that the person I come home to will have to be the right person.
So, I continue on in the path of life and handling things as they come along. I know that things will fall into place and that in many ways, they already have.
In the meantime, holiday season has commenced and it will include multiple viewings of Love Actually and Bridget Jones' Diary and a lot of catch up on movies, TV and books. Along with plenty of gatherings, I have no doubt. Oh, and I can't forget food!
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