Days like today

Days like today remind me that I need to take time for myself. Whether that is staying home with the dog, reading a book, watching a movie, or making a new item, it's very important that I take time for myself.

One thing I want to add back into the rotation is working out in the evenings. And I say evenings because I know myself well enough that I just won't get up in the mornings to do it. I'm more of a night owl than an early morning person. So, I have to put some time aside to get on the exercise bike, or start doing yoga at home. I've been meaning to put aside time for yoga in the evenings, other than my classes, but work has been kicking my butt these last two weeks. Though, lame duck should be over soon (crossing my fingers!!!)

Maybe I can fit that in tomorrow...

Just when you thought it was safe...

Yesterday was awful. The only thing that made it better was going out for sushi for dinner. Work just kicked my butt - I had a lot of constituents, lots of phone calls coming in, and just really felt like I got nothing done for as busy as I was. So, today had to be better, right?

Not so much. Today ended up being a day that just made me feel drained, sad, and just plain sick. I skipped out on happy hour plans because I just had to withdraw. The last few hours of the day, I just felt so useless, didn't want to be there, tired, and just wanted to cry. I'm going to guess that partly, I don't feel well, and the other part of me feeling like this is I'm just feeling a little insignificant. Hm, I sound like a commercial for Zoloft. Sigh.

I'm a little confused because I feel lonely, yet I want to be alone. That doesn't really make any sense, does it?

"You're so wise. You're like a miniature Buddha, covered in hair."

If you saw me right now, you wouldn't know that I'm super excited that tomorrow is Thursday. I have Friday off from work this week. But, I'm starting to feel like I'm getting sick. I am hoping I can stop it by sleeping and drinking fluids. Luckily, I've been getting some rest, as I've been able to leave work early this week.

The next few days are going to be pretty busy. I've been baking cookies a lot, but no more for this week, unless I do them in Muskegon on Friday. I have to do a ton of laundry all day Friday, and while that's in, I'm hoping to watch a movie or two. Maybe do a little baking. We'll see though. I have to head back to Muskegon tomorrow night, which means I have to pack, get the dog ready for the trip, get gas, etc. Then I have to get out of here, spend all day Friday in Muskegon, go to Eric's holiday work party, then drive back to Lansing on Saturday morning.

I will be attending my first ever MSU basketball game at Breslin Center on Saturday. It should be fun. I've been to the UM/MSU game before at Crisler, but I have never been to Breslin, and I'm curious to see it. It should be fun. There will be sushi beforehand, so that makes me happy!

I have a quick gripe, and it's something that I've always kind of dealt with. Clearly, I'm a female. All my life, I've been better friends with guys. I don't know why, I think I just get along better with guys. I'm kind of a tomboy, so maybe that's what makes it easier. Anyway, why can't I just be friends with guys? Is there a reason that whenever a girl and a guy are friends, everyone else thinks there's something going on? I know most of the time, people just joke about it, but after awhile, it just starts to get on my nerves. I'm not sure if anyone else ever has this problem, or if it's just me. Ha.

In order to get to this point...

The last week or so has almost been a blur. Last weekend was the last couple of days of the month, which meant the Legislature had to come to a budget agreement. In which case, I spent 36 hours straight at work last weekend. It ended up being completely exhausting, but I'm really glad that I did it. First, I got to witness history in the making (it seems to be my trend this year. See: UM vs. Appalachian State.) I also got to see a lot of stuff that helped me understand the process. More importantly, in my opinion, I was able to spend a lot of time with my fellow staff members. For me, it's been a pretty good experience, because I don't get to see them all that much, being in different offices and all.

Which brings me to this point. I've been living in Lansing for almost two years (it will be at the end of the month). In the last few months, I've finally started to feel as though my life is there. I've gotten involved in the Jaycees more, I've made more connections at work, and I actually have things to do in the Lansing area other than sit and watch TV in my apartment.

So, in general, things are going pretty well. I feel like things are busy, but that's been good for me. I don't do very well when I'm bored!